I think my journey is going along great...I'm happy, I'm doing fine....and then.... BUMP.
I fall head first into a giant road block. I get stuck. Like mud-up-to-my-knees type of stuck and I really think it's going to consume me. The food, the emotions, the lack of self control. All of my old thoughts, ways and feelings all pile onto me as I'm stuck in this muck. I feel sad, angry, frustrated, ugly and unworthy.
I feel this little nasty voice in my head saying, I'm not worth it, I'm just gonna gain everything back, so why bother trying. And then this other voice in my head, it's actually a softer voice, but firmer says... NO! You have come too far to turn back and you need to think about just how far you have come! We are NOT giving up!
So here I sit. In the muck. I know that things will look better soon.
I just gotta climb outta this muck. One step at a time.
The muck is soooo annoying. I know precisely what you mean. But just get the metaphorical hose and spray it all down. It will come off. The muck and the weight. Keep going...keep going!!!
ReplyDeleteYou can do it Katie! If that soft voice of hope isn't loud enough, we can yell it at you too, if you'd like :) Good luck and don't give in!
ReplyDeleteKeep the faith, chica! You are SO worth it and keep thinking about that Skinny Bucket List!
ReplyDeleteKeep your head up and eyes on Him :) Let Him pull you up out of that muck and continuosly remind you of how loved you are and worthy of that love! You can do this Katie, 50 lbs down already... that is amazing! And so inspiring. (forgive the misspells its late!)
ReplyDeleteI agree with Melissa. You're doing great and I'm so proud and encouraged by you. Muck makes us stronger. Although when we’re in it we don’t feel strong at all. But once you’ve made it through you look back with a confidence that you didn’t know you had. Amanda (Langston's mom)
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