Feelin' Sad and Binge Eating

Hey lovelies. I just wanted to write to say that I'm doing okay, but have been dealing with some super tough issues that have happened to a couple of my loved ones and I'm just feelin' a little blue tonight.

I think my journey is going along great...I'm happy, I'm doing fine....and then.... BUMP.

I fall head first into a giant road block. I get stuck. Like mud-up-to-my-knees type of stuck and I really think it's going to consume me. The food, the emotions, the lack of self control. All of my old thoughts, ways and feelings all pile onto me as I'm stuck in this muck. I feel sad, angry, frustrated, ugly and unworthy.

I feel this little nasty voice in my head saying, I'm not worth it, I'm just gonna gain everything back, so why bother trying. And then this other voice in my head, it's actually a softer voice, but firmer says... NO! You have come too far to turn back and you need to think about just how far you have come! We are NOT giving up!

So here I sit. In the muck. I know that things will look better soon.

I just gotta climb outta this muck. One step at a time.

A Day At the Park!

This past weekend my kiddos were here with Erik and Laura. I absolutely LOVE it when we all get to be together. Wyatt loves the Fun Fort, a local favorite at my old elementary school so we loaded up the fam damily and heading on over.

This is Wyatt's excited "I'm going to the PARK!" face.

This was their little snail family that they found...much to Grandma and Mama's dislike...

But Aunty didn't mind. :) Exploration is good for the soul...

nothing a little scrub down wouldn't clean!

My favorite Little Man!

I could just kiss him all day!

This picture cracked me up! First of all, I LOVE my SIL Laura...I can't believe she puts up with all of our crazy antics! But what I love the most is...

Wyatt and Erik have the same "fake smile"!!!

I can't believe Wyatt learned Daddy's trick already!

I love my Abby girl! Such a sweet spunky little lady!

Grandma and Ryan in Grandma's "Castle"... She's the Queen after all, ya know!

My Garden!

This is my Garden. I love it....

These are my helpers. I love them even more.

(Do you see the Radishes in the background??? I'm sooo EXCITED!!!!)

We planted Sunflowers, Pumpkins, Zucchini, and Squash together.

I can't wait for our harvest!

It sure is fun growing things with God's help!

I DID IT!!!!!!!

I DID IT!!!!! After 22 weeks of healthy living, I have dropped FIFTY POUNDS!!!! Check out the video for cool Before and After Pics and to see what 50 pounds equals in potatoes, butter, chihuahuas and children! :) (What can I say....I'm a tad bit excited!!!!)

So here's to THIS Fifty and to my future Fifty! :)